Arnold Schwarzenegger has revealed that his lifelong penchant for secrecy and his ability to put emotions "on deep freeze" led him to keep many secrets from his wife Maria Shriver, eventually causing the dissolution of their marriage when he was forced to admit that he fathered a child with the family's housekeeper years earlier.
Throughout their strained 25-year marriage, Schwarzenegger says he did not want to tell Shriver about crucial life decisions like major heart surgery and running for California governor because he feared she would overreact and tell her well-connected family and friends about it.
In his new autobiography, 'Total Recall: My Unbelievably True Life Story', the former California governor acknowledges that his inability to be honest with people has hurt those who are closest to him.
"That's the way I handle things. And it always has worked. But, I mean it does not - it's not the best thing for people around me because I sometimes - some information I just keep to myself," ABC news quoted him as saying on '60 Minutes'.
The former Mr. Universe traced his detachment to his bodybuilding days, where he says emotions make athletes lose.
"So I became an expert in living in denial," he said.
The 65-year-old is all praises for his estranged wife throughout the book as a partner and friend who was essential to his success, but also admits to keeping her in the dark about many career decisions.
Shriver filed for divorce from him in July 2011, after 25 years of marriage.
Schwarzenegger's biggest secret - the child he had with the family's housekeeper, became tabloid news last year after he left office.
Shriver confronted him during a January 2011 counselling session and he finally acknowledged the boy, Joseph, was his. Schwarzenegger says he kept the secret from his wife for years because he was worried "it would get out."
According to him, he never even had a conversation with the housekeeper, Mildred Baena, about the son. Instead, after he began noticing the boy's strong resemblance to him, around age 8, he just began giving Baena extra money.
"I kind of put it away and just said to myself, 'OK, I'm going to put this away. I'm going to fulfil my responsibilities'," he added.
'Total Recall' will officially be published on Monday. (ANI)