Michael Jackson's fame led him to addiction and confused sexuality, according to a new book by a highly acclaimed journalist.
Randall Sullivan's new book, "Untouchable: The Strange Life and Tragic Death of Michael Jackson," which will be available in stores Tuesday, revealed that the King of Pop was a shopaholic who could spend 250,00 dollars on a shopping spree without thinking.
"The shopping, like the drugs, were a, it was a painkiller for him," ABC News quoted Sullivan as saying in the book.
Sullivan also described Jackson as a man-child who couldn't leave fame, or family, behind.
He said Jackson, who starred as the Scarecrow in the 1978 blockbuster flop, "The Wiz," wanted to be an actor, Sullivan said.
"He wanted to play Spiderman and Willy Wonka," Sullivan said.
According to Sullivan Jackson claimed himself to be a child trapped in an adult world.
Sullivan said even as an adult, Jackson never got to express his sexuality.
"I think he did all that he could to neutralize himself," he said.
"I don't think Michael was trying to be homosexual, heterosexual, pedophile, I think he was trying to be asexual: pre-sexual actually. I think he was aiming to be pre-sexual because he saw that as the one place where innocence and purity and great ideas and you know, artistic visions and poetic fantasies all abided," he sttaed.
Sullivan said Jackson long saw himself as a real-life Peter Pan, and he even had plastic surgery to copy the appearance of actor Bobby Driscoll's "Peter Pan's nose."
There were of course the accusations that Jackson's love of children was, in fact, sexual but there is no proof Jackson molested anyone.
In 2003, he was cleared of the only accusation that ever made it to trial, but he admitted to sharing a bed with pre-pubescent kids.
According to Sullivan, the super star loves to be around kids and he even slept next to dozens of children.
"He wanted to be a child himself. He wanted to believe that he was another 12-year-old or 13-year-old... He wanted a sleepover. He felt he didn't get childhood," he said. (ANI)